Becoming the man that God has called me to be and becoming the father to my 4 children that he has called me to be are the absolute focuses of my life.  Matt, Rob, Mike, Bobby, Scotty, Lori, and so many others I thank you for helping me to maintain my focus in life.  I know that the road ahead will be hard, but the peace I have knowing God is in control is incredible.  I spent so much time trying to control my situation and not allowing God in, to the point that I began to hate God, or so I thought.  I am so thankful that He allowed me to fall as far as I did and I look forward to allowing Him to reshape me in to the man He wants me to be.